What I Learned in Yoga Today...

I came semi close to this pose. Just add a wall for my feet to rest against and this picture could totally be me. :)

So today Hope didn't have an intention for us. She wanted us to come up with our own intention. She wanted us to ask ourselves a question of something that's been bothering us or on our mind. And then through the course of the class we were suppose to narrow down what the answer is. So my question to myself was, why do I feel so scatter brained lately? I just don't feel on top of things. My mind is going in a hundred different directions and in return I'm not giving my all to the important things. So during yoga we were doing some poses where we would be on our knees and then hunch our backs and curl up. Then we would do just the opposite and open our arms behind us and let our hearts open up to the sky. Hope told us to concentrate on how each pose felt in our hearts. It was then that I got my answer to my question. There are things in my life that constricts my heart (the hunched pose) and there are things in my life that makes my heart feel open and alive (the heart to the sky pose). Usually I'm a good judge of what I can handle and what I can't. But every so often it's time to re-evaluate things. De-cluttering is what I called it in an earlier post. So let's see what can I do to stop my heart from constricting?.... I'm telling this lady that's been bugging me about playing a piano solo in her ward that I just don't do that kind of thing. That has caused major stress. I'm going to wake up earlier so I can get some things done. The morning is such a peaceful time and I can probably accomplish a lot more than when the kids are awake and bugging me. And lastly, I'm going to get my insomnia under control. Whether I go see the doctor, take sleeping pills, try meditation, whatever, I just need to figure it out. There's no way I'm waking up early if I didn't get to bed until 3 am. I hate the feeling at night when my body is exhausted but my mind won't shut off. Plus it's no fun the next day. So there you have it. Wish me luck!